Luann Prater

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!”
2 Corinthians 5:17 (NIV)

I was afraid of you. Yes, you. Do you know how long God has tried to work completely through me and yet was continually blocked because of my fear…of you? Most of my life my confident exterior has been a mask, like siding slapped on an imperfect house. I’ve been here, you just couldn’t see me. You saw the white vinyl siding that looked bright and cheery, but you didn’t see the real me.

If I dared rip off the façade you would see my rotted frame, gaping holes and leaky life. I was afraid you would run screaming at the sight, if you saw me exposed. I was afraid of your reaction.

I had lived with that shambled life for so long I couldn’t imagine myself as a new creation. I pictured the old hiding behind the veneer. What would you truly think of me if you knew the intimate details of my past? I was afraid to find out, so I hid it from you.

The Holy Spirit tried to comfort me, speaking softly to my heart, “You are a new creation. Live like it.” I would rebut, “Have you seen my past?” Then I would dutifully pull out my wallet-sized memories and begin flipping through them as a reminder of just how decayed my life had been. I would question, “Do you see this? Do you understand how people react to this sort of mess? They don’t embrace it, they separate from it! They run from this!” Timidly I cried, “Can’t you see this rotting foundation? See the lies that leaked in over here? Surely you can see right through these holes in my judgment!”

“Here is what I see,” the Holy Spirit whispered, “a new creation.” And He pulled out a mirror and held it up to my heart. The images that burned in my brain seemed to be blocking my view. They fogged the mirror. Then a nail-scarred hand gently wiped the fog away and I saw a snowflake; first one, then another. As the reflection of my heart panned out, the view became crystal clear. There was no run-down frame wrapped in white vinyl. No! For the first time I could see it, a brand new home glistening on a solid foundation surrounded by a blanket of white! And it was breathtaking!

Was this really MY heart? Streak-free windows allowed me to peak in at the brand new furnishings of peace, joy and kindness that were scattered in each room. For years Christ stood on the outside of my broken down heart, knocking. But once I let him in, all things were changed. I became a new creation.

So how about you? Are you afraid? As I speak to women across the country I find that 90% can’t let go of their past. They are afraid others will condemn them. Romans 8:1 tells us there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. We each have a past, remember ALL have sinned, but you no longer need to be afraid of your dark past. Ephesians 5:8 promises, “For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light.” You don’t have to be afraid. Christ is calling you to live in fearless freedom.

Dear Lord, Thank You for throwing our sin in the sea of forgetfulness and making us bright shining children of light. Help us each day to walk in that light and see Your reflection in our hearts. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

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Application Steps:
On 3 index cards paste old pictures of you before Christ; you know the ones that pop into your mind when you think about your past. Now on the flip side of each card write one of these verses: 2 Corinthians 5:17, Romans 8:1 and Ephesians 5:8.

What triggers memories of the past?

How has your life changed since you became a new creation?

Who can you trust to share a story from your past? God will use your story to help others find hope.

Power Verses:
1 Peter 2:10, “Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy." (NIV)

John 8:12, “When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” (NIV)

Ephesians 4:22-24, “You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.” (NIV)

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've never left a comment before... but this devotion was something I truly needed to read. This has really blessed me today and I wanted to express how thankful I am you shared this today Ms. Luann. I am printing this off and hanging it right by my computer to keep as a daily reminder of that new creation I often like to forget I am. God bless you! Your sister in Christ-Ashleigh

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am an overweight Youth Pastor's wife. I have been beating myself up with phrases so similar to what you wrote. I had convinced myself ( an exucse really) that the kids wouldn't want to hear anything from "that fat woman". I have join WW and am getting busy with that, but forgot to get on with my 'real' life in Christ. I am not all those old mistakes!!

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Someone is reading my mail. This hit the nail on the head. I so often think of all the bad things I have done, evey time I have yelled at my children, spoke harsh words in frustration, or been judgemental of others. Each time I have used hurt as an excuse, or have been unfair in how I react to people or even my family. I allow the evil one to get into my heart and bring up all of these thoughts, and instead of knowing I have been forgiven and that God makes up for all the places I fall short because I am only human and I do fail, I become overwhelmed, heartbroken, and desparate to be saved from what I feel is a sinking ship. a ship that I sank by my actions that I feel so ashamed of. I question whether or not I am a good mom because all I can remember is the failures that I encountered during the day. All the missed opportunities with my kids because I was too busy doing something that was not important. I want to see myself not as a shack trying to pretend it is a mansion by its own doing but a real home that is filled with God's love. A home that exudes the fragrance of Christ at every chance. One that is not caught up in the details of life, but one that is living life each day to the fullest.

Forgive me for not seeking you this morning, I allowed the evil one to penetrate my thoughts today, and I didn't handle some situations with Grace and Ben well today and I am sorry for my short temper with her. I want to be the mother that you desire for my children, and I know that i can only do that when I seek you first b/c you are the great giver of patience mercy and grace. I love my children with all my heart and I just want to be a good mother to them. I want them to grow up knowing that they are loved greatly and deeply by me, not for what they do but for who they are inside. I pray for each of my children, that you make up where I fall short. That you love them in times when I fall short and miss them, b/c I know that those times happen. Help me to seize each opportunity to enter into their world and have fun with them at this age. help me to cherish each moment that i ahve with them as they are growing up so quickly. Help us to make smart financial decisions in our home. Give us clear direction about the right choices to make. I pray my prayer list over my children this night and know that you hear my prayers and that you desire the best for my family. Thank you for speaking so clearly to me in my time of need. I pray that you help me find discipline and structure in my life where I am lacking. Thank you for my husband. Help the times that we have together as a family be ones that are fun and memorable, that those times be times when he can pour into the kids and they can love on him and him on them.

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